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Monday, May 30, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 30

Its May 30th, and you know what that means ?
It means we have finally reached day 30 of the 30 day challenge !!!

*insert applauds here*

Ya'll don't understand, I've tried quite a few times to do 30 day challenges of all kinds before, mostly ones where you have to post certain pictures to either Facebook or Instagram, and I've always had a hard time finishing them. Either I get bored, or can't find what I want to post. This time was a wee bit easier. Maybe because it involved writing instead of just posting images.

I want to thank Ya'll for sticking with me and coming back every day to read my posts.

For today's final challenge, I'm supposed to write about "one thing you're excited for".

How do I choose just one thing to write about ? I'm excited about quite a few things.

For example, next week some time, I'm supposed to be getting my new laptop. I can't wait, it'll be way better for when I'm editing my Youtube videos, and other stuff. My current desktop computer is very slow, and whenever I try to edit my videos, it lags so bad, that I don't do a proper job editing them that I know I can do. Plus it ends up taking me nearly 2 or 3 hours just to edit a barely 10 minute video. Enough is enough now. If I want to focus on making something of my Youtube, then I need to have a better computer to edit with.

I'm also excited for June 23rd.
Why, you ask ? Because June 23rd is my daughter's last day of school for the summer. I'm excited for that because her and I have a lot of fun things planned for the summer. Not to mention that for 2 months, we can sleep in and don't have to worry about waking up at 6am, don't have to worry about dress code, early bedtimes, etc.

What about Ya'll, what are you excited about ?
Let me know in the comments section below.

Today's music challenge,
"Your favorite song at this time last year".

I'm sure I've mentioned it before, but I don't really listen to recent music, so I don't even know what songs were popular last year, but I do remember that around this time last year, I was listening to a lot of merengue and bachata, and the song I really loved a lot was "Darte un Beso" by Prince Royce.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 29

I love Sundays, but my reasons are totally contradicting of each other, go figure.

See, I love Sundays, because that's the day my daughter and I do our crafting thing. I'm sure I've mentioned it before, but every Sunday, my daughter and I sit in the kitchen, and we do different kinds of crafts. Some times we do one together, but we also tend to do our own thing, like I'd work on my polymer clay, and she'd pretend she's doing the same by using her play-doh. (I don't let her use my polymer clay, cause even though its clay, I haven't seen anywhere if its safe or not for children like how non-toxic play-doh is).


On the other hand, the other reason I love Sundays (for now), is because I know that in just a few short hours, she'll be on her way to school. Don't get me wrong, I love my daughter more than life itself, but her and I have such similar personalities, that we clash, ALOT. lol. From the time my daughter has been able to talk in full sentences, I don't think I can recall a single day yet where we haven't had at least one argument. Well, with the exceptions of days when she isn't feeling well, because on those days, she is my cuddly lil princess who needs mommy, and needs mommy's cuddles. I won't lie, as independent as my daughter is becoming, I tend to love those days, since lately, cuddles with her are few and far between.

Oddly though, I can't wait till she goes to school, but at the same time, I end up missing her, and the silence is too much for me, and I can't wait for 2pm to come cause that's when my babygirl comes home.

Today, however, we didn't do any crafts. Both of us were tired and my back has been killing me since this morning (I must've slept wrong or something), and the thought of sitting on those hard kitchen chairs just was not appealing today. So, we went for a walk instead. It was raining all morning, so we couldn't go to the park, so we walked up to the McD's near me, and I let her play in the playground for a few hours, then we came home, and together cooked an early meal for dinner. Usually we don't cook (or eat) supper till around 5pm, but both of us were hungry, and since we skipped lunch, I figured we'd cook at 2:30, and it'll be ready by 3ish, then we can eat. It was really good too.

Now its 11:30 and I'm sitting down to write today's challenge before I start watching more episodes of Family Matters on my computer.

So now.....

Welcome to day 29 of the writing challenge.
Can you believe it....tomorrow is the last day ! I don't know what I'm gonna do after this challenge is done. What will challenge me to continue constantly writing ? Hmmm, who knows, but its been fun for sure, maybe I'll continue frequently writing. Probably won't be daily, but I'll try my best.

Today's challenge, I'm supposed to write about "Your 21st birthday, (and if not yet 21, your last birthday)".

My 21st birthday.....

Honestly, I did sweet fuck all (pardon my language), because I still very upset about what happened on my birthday the year before (long very emotional story and I'm so over it already...I think, but really don't want to talk about it again), and I just really didn't want to celebrate and risk something else bad happening on my birthday. So I went to La Cancha, chilled with my boys for a bit, drank, then came home.

I was also in a kind of depressed state, because I was still mourning the loss of the child I miscarried in June of that year, and then breaking up with my boyfriend like a week or 2 later. Let me tell you, my best guy friend at the time (same one I spoke about in Day 3 of this challenge) , wasn't too pleased about how all that went down, I had to stop him from going after my ex. But I'm glad I stopped him, cause my ex and I are now really great friends, and had my bestie done what he wanted, I don't think we would be such great friends today.

I don't remember if I did anything with my mom that year, cause I know my baby brother was only a few months old then, (4 months old), so I MIGHT have spent time there, cause I know when my brother Brian was a baby, I spent a lot of time with my mom, and I think she might have made me a dinner and/ possibly a cake. I love my mom's cakes, they are so yummy. Can't ask mommy though, her memory is just as shot as mine is haha.

So that's how my 21st birthday went down.

Coulda been better of course, but coulda been worse too. At least I got to spend time with my vatos, and that helped make the day a good one, every day with them was a good day in my eyes.

Come back tomorrow for the LAST day of this writing challenge, which is "One thing you're excited for".

Today's song challenge,

"A song from your childhood"

Easy one......
This song, I performed with 2 of my friends at school for talent night, it was fun, I still remember all the rehearsals after school and weekends, and the costumes we wore. That song is "The Loco-motion" by Kylie Minogue.

Saturday, May 28, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 28

Spending time with loved ones is always the best way to spend the day. I spent a wonderful afternoon with my daughter and some of our family. These people, (aside from Jubjub), are not biological family, but they are still uber important to us, and spending time with them is always fun, and always puts a huge smile on my daughter's face, which makes me happy.

We had a lil gathering for my nephew Mick'e's 3rd birthday (even though it was back in April, better late than never), and although a few people didn't make it, the kids still had fun, which is what matters. It was at the Harvey's restaurant in Lasalle, which has a nice sized play area for the kids (almost like the playparks in some McD's). Met some new friends, and seen some old friends I hadn't seen in what felt like forever. My daughter enjoyed seeing her aunties and uncles, and especially her nana and her 2 favorite cousins. (her and my nephew Ej are besties, and have been ever since they were born only 2 months apart).

Then we went to the hospital to visit my brother Keeferz, because he was in an accident and broke his tibia and needed emergency surgery and was keeping him there for a few days. It was nice seeing him, and I got to sit on his hospital bed with him, and OMG is that thing ever comfortable ! I swear, had my daughter not been cranky since she was over tired from playing all day, I probably woulda stayed till last metro, but sadly I had to leave around 9:15, cause it was already past her bedtime (8pm), and she was getting too cranky. Plus she is scared of hospitals, so she wasn't a happy camper to begin with, even though at the party she was constantly asking if it was time to go see uncle keeferz yet.

All in all, it was a great day.

So moving on,

Thanks for coming back for day 28's writing challenge.
I can't believe I'm actually gonna make it !
Haven't missed a day yet, and we only got 2 days left !

So as you know, today's challenge, is "A word or phrase you constantly use".

You know, I can't really think of ones I use often, I mean there's the normal ones like "really ?", "oh lawd", "wow", and "wtf" lol, and when it comes to my daughter, I tend to over use "what did I just say", "because I said so that's why".

I'm sure there are more words or phrases I constantly use, but I just can't think of any right now. And also, let me know, is there a saying or phrase you know ME to use constantly that I haven't mentioned ?

What about ya'll ?
Let me know in the comments section what words/phrases you use a lot.

Come back tomorrow for day 29, which is "The night of your 21st birthday, (if not yet 21, the last birthday you had)"

Today's music challenge,
"A song that makes you feel guilty".

That would be, "Unfaithful" by Rihanna. I'm not an angel, and even though now I have learned my lesson and refuse to cheat in a relationship, I'd rather just break up than cheat, back in the day, I'd say teens-early 20's, I didn't have the same mentality I had now. Back then it was more like "play before you get played". My uptown boys taught me that. I'm sure I could've hurt quite a few hearts had it gotten out, unless it did and they just didn't say so.


Friday, May 27, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 27

Lawdddddd its hot outside today !!

32 degrees Celsius (or 90 degrees Fahrenheit). And just think, that is BEFORE you factor in the humidex level. I swear its dangerous for people who have breathing issues.

If you don't have to be out there, don't go ! Stay your butt inside where its cool and you can rest comfortable.

Tomorrow supposed to be just as bad, but I have a very important family gathering to go to, plus afterwards, I have one of my siblings to go visit in the hospital, so my fat ass is bearing the heat and going out of my house. But please believe, I'm bringing nice ice cold water with me for me and my daughter ! Just incase.

Are you ready for today's writing challenge ? I'm telling you, its gonna be short cause I was smart, I kept my butt in the house all day, sittin' infront of my fan to stay cool. As you know from yesterday's post, today's challenge, is "What you wore today".

Its simple.....

All I wore today, was a dark pink (almost fuchsia) tank top that my sister Shay has given me years ago, it has a large black rose silk screened on to it, and truth be told, its one of my favorite pieces of clothing I own. Oh, and the bottom of it has a ruffled edge too. Its quite feminine, yet casual at the same time, and not overly feminine.

I was in my own house, so no, I didn't wear any bottoms, mind you, YES, I had on panties you dirty minded people lol, but I didn't bother putting on pants or shorts. For what ? Its just me and my daughter home, and I wasn't expecting any company. If I can't sit comfortably in my own home, what's the point of having my own place ?

I know in yesterday's blog I told ya'll I was gonna try to take a selfie, but sadly, I didn't manage to, one, my hair was a mess, 2, I aint shaved my legs yet and ya'll aint seeing that lol, and 3, my back was so sore today making it hard to move, so taking mirror selfies was the furthest thing from my mind. I apologize for that.

But one day I'll probably post a pic of me wearing the shirt on my instagram (ChispaSpeaks_yt if you wanna check it out).

Don't forget to check out my latest video that I just uploaded today

Join me tomorrow for day 28's challenge, which is "The word/ phrase you use constantly".
Today's music challenge,
" A song that you wish you could play".
That would be the drum solo in one of my favorite songs by Metallica, "Sad But True".

Thursday, May 26, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 26

Am I the only "weirdo" who actually enjoys it when it rains ?

I used to hate thunder, but recently, I find that thunder combined with heavy rain tends to calm me down and put me in this almost zen like state of mind. So at peace.

 Its not raining right now, but the way its gloomy outside, it looks like it'll be raining any min now. At least I hope so.

Today is day 26 of the writing challenge, and for today, I'm supposed to write "Things you want to say to an ex". I could be here forever writing when I think about certain exes.

But there is some things I want to say to a certain ex in particular that I've been holding in for so long, and although I won't name anyone, they should know its aimed at them (if ever they read this)

Dear Ex,
                 I let my guard down with you and let you in to my world. I trusted you, which is hard for me to do, and how do you repay me ? By playing me for a fool. I was there for you when no one else was, put you ahead of my own feelings and needs. I pushed away family and friends for you. Anyone who spoke ill of you, heard an earful from me. I defended you, even when I thought you were in the wrong. You made me believe what we had was special, until you proved to me that it wasn't. I would spend HOURS listening to you vent about everything and anything, even losing sleep just to be there for you. In my eyes, you could do no wrong, you were an angel in my eyes. Not bad like the way you claimed everyone perceived you as, just misunderstood. For things to end the way they did, no closure, not a word, cut deep like a knife. As if to say that everything I did for you over the years meant nothing, that I meant nothing. Not only did I lose someone I thought was "the one", I lost my best friend, the one person on this earth I felt really understood me and cared for me as deeply as I cared for them. I used to make people jealous of what we had, cause everyone thought it was perfect and that we were perfect for each other. Guess they were wrong. I thought after all this time that I'd be over the pain, and over you, but I thought wrong. I still can't look at your picture without feeling a deep anger and sadness. Sometimes I want to just reach out to you, ask you WHY, and if I EVER meant anything to you, but I'm afraid of getting no answer, or getting an answer I don't think I'm prepared to hear. We were friends before anything, dare I even say best friends, and to lose that for what...... really hurts. I've spent many nights crying over you, so many nights that I didn't even think I could cry again. Now I am just numb to it all. You are the reason I have stayed single since, you are the reason I can't let anyone in the way I let you in. You are the reason I can't trust anyone anymore. Will I get over it ? In time. Will I ever love again ? I'm sure I will. Will I ever trust again ? Ah, now there's the million dollar question....what do you think ? How could I possibly ? Especially with my depression and anxiety, which YOU know all too well what that's like since you suffer from the same disorders, which is what I thought bonded us even more. Thank you for making me feel like trash, and helping me to believe that I'm not capable of being loved. You brought my smile back once upon a time, but now you've also become the one to take it away again.

Wow that felt good to get that out there.
I have A LOT more to say to this specific ex, but then it would make it obvious as to who I'm talking about, and I like to leave people wondering. I know some people close to me will already know who it is about

Join me tomorrow for day 27's challenge, which is "What you wore today".
Who knows, I may even take a full body selfie for ya'll. Haven't done that in awhile.

Today's music challenge,
"A song you can play on an instrument"

I can't play instruments anymore, when I was little, I used to play drums and piano, but never stuck with it. So instead, I'll just post a song that kind of goes along with today's post. "Unbreak My Heart" by Toni Braxton. I know its not the same meaning to the song as what I talked about today, but the words go perfectly with how this situation has made me feel for the longest time.

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 25

Do you ever just want to sit in complete silence and relax ?

I had that opportunity today. Complete silence.

Even once my daughter came home from school, we didn't bother to turn on the tv or anything. we had fun outside afterschool, and then came in, had supper, did the dishes together, then she sat and played with her toys, I read her an early bedtime story, and just chilled until it was time for her to go to bed. (which today was earlier than her normal 8pm bedtime, cause she has her last day of Horse Therapy, and she loves seeing "her" horse, so she always goes to bed early the night before horse day.

Usually my dad comes upstairs in the afternoon, and BLARES the tv (you'd think he was playing for the whole street), from afternoon till night time, and to be honest, it bothers me, cause I prefer quiet. But today, my dad didn't come upstairs to my house at all, so I was able to just relax and enjoy the tranquility of the silence in my home. Lord only knows how long that silence will last, so I'm enjoying it while I can.

So today is day 25, only 5 days left in this challenge ! We're doing it ! We'll make it !

Today's challenge, is "four weird traits you have".

I'm not entirely sure what constitutes as "weird", since what might be weird to me might not be to others, and vice versa. But here goes anyway....

1. I pick my lips, sometimes till they bleed.
Its true, when I'm feeling anxious, or even just bored, I tend to pick at my lips. If my lips are dry, and I feel some skin peeling, I feel like its my obligation to pick the dead skin until I don't feel any more rough edges. Hence my obsession with lip balms and lip glosses, I don't like my lips to get dry.

2. I have to have a "sauce" on pretty much all food.
I can't eat my food plain, I have to put a sauce of some sort on almost everything I eat, either melted butter, gravy, or salad dressing (usually creamy coleslaw dressing). Its very hard for me to eat food, no matter how juicy or moist, sauce-less.

3. Almost everything has to alphabetized.
My movies, folders on my computer, bookmarks on my computer, folders on my ipad and iphone, my mobile apps, and a lot more. Only thing I don't alphabetize is my books, because I have a different system for placing those. I've even made the folders on other people's computers and tablets alphabetized when using them because I hate seeing things in random order.

4. I constantly shake my leg (sometimes both).
Many people find that annoying, but its how I stay calm and relaxed. If I'm not shaking at least one leg while sitting doing a task (like writing or doing something on the computer), then I don't feel comfortable, and I fidget (move around) a lot.

There is many more traits that some might find weird, and I actually plan on doing a video for my youtube channel very shortly that tells people my weird traits. Just not sure when I'll get around to doing it, I have so many videos planned.

Don't forget to come back tomorrow for day 26's challenge, "Things you'd say to an ex". This should be good HAHA.

Today's music challenge,
"A song that makes you laugh"

I'm including the clip below, but unfortunately I can't find an actual video of it, just the song with some album art, but at least you can hear the song. Its a reggae song called "Somebody just poop" by Goofy.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 24

Oh-Em-Gee was it ever flippin hot out today ?! If its this hot now, and we're only in May, what's it gonna be like in July ?! Can I hibernate all summer, hide myself in my house sitting infront of a fan ?!

I can't deal with humidity. Heat itself isn't so bad, I can deal with heat, but combine that with humidity, that's it, I'm done. I never have liked summer, I am a winter person. Maybe cause I was born in September, so by then the heat and humidity has died down, but I'll take coldness over heat any day.

Today is day 24 of the writing challenge, and if you've followed me so far, then thank you ! You're amazing ! I'll be honest, other than my big sis Marika, I'm really not sure who is reading my blogs. I mean I see in the overview that a certain amount of views per post, but then again, that could also be from myself when I click it to see if it came out right or to share it on my social media. No one ever comments, so I really don't know who is reading or if anyone is even enjoying my posts.

Today's challenge, is "Something you miss".

There's a lot of things I miss, but to be honest, the thing I miss most, is my mid teen years. More specifically, ages 14 till about 18 or so.

I had fun times during those years. The memories that I could write about, my gosh, I could write 2 or 3 books of memoires. Some memories are sad, but most of my memories from that time put a huge, "kool-aid grin" on my face just thinking about them.

I especially miss hanging out with my friends at La Cancha and parque Jarry.I'm sure I've mentioned this before, but we used to stay out to late at night just sitting at La Cancha talkin' shit, and just chillen (sometimes drinks were involved, I won't lie lol). It was so much fun, sometimes I would lose track of time and end up coming home so late I'd have to take the night bus home. I don't regret anything from those days, except that maybe I coulda focused more on my studies instead of dropping out at 16. But the memories I made, along with the friends I made, are irreplaceable, and helped me become the person I am today.

Okay, before I start getting all emotional over the past, I'm gonna end this here. Don't forget to come back tomorrow for day 25's challenge, which is "Four weird traits you have".

Don't forget to check out my latest youtube video that I just posted today, its another taste test video. Also, if you're not yet a subscriber, please do so, I'm trying to reach 1000 subs by my birthday in September, I'm currently only at 269 at last check.


Today's music challenge,
"A song you want played at your funeral".

Hands down, that would be "One Sweet Day" by Mariah Carey ft Boys II Men.

Monday, May 23, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 23

I think today will be the first day since starting this writing challenge, that I have to post about something completely off topic.

Reason being, I just can't bring myself to write about a family member I dislike. Why, you ask ? First of all, I don't like drama, and talking about a family member I dislike out in an open/public area like this will cause un-needed drama, especially since I don't know exactly who does or doesn't read my blog anymore. Secondly, there is more than one person in my family that I dislike, and I couldn't figure out which one I wanted to talk about most.

So instead, I will talk about what I do to calm myself down, or to feel at peace when my moods get bad, or anxiety hits.

Normally, if possible, I prefer to do tasks that will allow me to be alone and start to relax the more I progress in whatever task. Usually that would be writing in my diary/journal, crafting in my kitchen (since my apartment is too small to have my own craft room/space), reading a book, coloring, or playing a game (be it on my computer, xbox 360, or ipad).

Of all the ways I mentioned, crafting has quickly become my favorite way to unwind. Especially when I'm working with clay. (Polymer clay especially, cause it starts out hard until you condition it). One day I'll show you guys some of the pieces I've made. I don't know, there's just something about the feel of the clay when I knead it between my hands that I find so relaxing. To be honest, some times I will keep a chunk of clay beside my desk, so at night when I'm not in the mood to craft, but need to calm down, I can just hold it in my hand and knead it, almost like a stress ball. (which I'm actually thinking of making, I've seen a few youtube tutorials, so might try it on the weekend, or in summer when Diva is done school).

So I guess that's it for now, let me know in the comments below, what do you do to calm down or relax when you've had a stressful day ?

Come back tomorrow for day 24's challenge, which is "Something you miss".

Today's music challenge,
"A song you want played at your wedding".

That's a tough one, since there's so many good songs, well for sure, for the Father-daughter dance, I want to play "Rockin' Robin" by Bobby Day. That's been my dad and I's song since I was a very little girl.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 22

I still can't believe that my baby brother turns 18 today !

Wow time sure flies huh ? I still remember when he was a baby and my mom brought him home from the hospital, how tiny he was. Look at him now, kid is taller than me, and I'm 38 !

I love him so much, and even though he's in Ontario and I'm in Quebec, he's still with me in my heart, and I hope he is having an amazing birthday.


Its day 22 of the writing challenge.
We're coming close to the end. This has been fun, I just hope I can keep up with my writing once its done. I can tell you now, it most likely won't be every day, but I'll try my best.

Okay, so today's challenge, is "Your morning routine".

Simple enough.....

During the week (on school days), I wake up at 6am, usually wash my face to wake myself up better, then I make breakfast for my daughter, sit with her while she eats. (I usually never eat breakfast unless my daughter asks me to). After breakfast, I style my daughter's hair, and help her to get dressed. Then we sit and watch tv until its time for her to go downstairs to catch her transport to school. Once I come back in from seeing her on the bus, what happens next depends on how I'm feeling.....

If I'm still sleepy, I'll check my games on my ipad while watching Steven & Chris, then when my eyes are feeling heavy, I go back to sleep for a few hours.


If I'm feeling energetic and in a good mood, I'll sit at my computer and film a few videos at a time to edit later on for future uploads for my youtube channel. Some times I can film as many as 5 or 6 videos before I start to get sleepy again. One time I even recorded EIGHT ! The only time I really get to film is when my daughter is at school, or when she is sleeping, because as many of you know, I don't allow her to be in my videos, hell, I don't even post her on my public social media (Like my twitter, snapchat, or public Instagram). Plus, I feel akward filming when other people are around (yes, even when filming collab videos), so I like to film when I am completely alone. But I'll talk more about that in a future post once this challenge is over.

Weekends and days when Diva (my daughter) has no school, my routine is slightly different...

In the mornings on days when she has no school, my daughter tends to lay down next to me and occupy her time with coloring or watching tv, or videos on the ipad, and lets me sleep for awhile. But once she has decided that I've slept long enough, or that she's uber hungry, then she will wake me up and say its time to get up.

When that happens, I get up, wash my face, throw my hair in to a bun or ponytail, and then my daughter and I together, will make breakfast, and eat while watching cartoons. Then we either go back to lay down, or we'll talk and decide what we want to do for the day, which usually involves my daughter wanting to do some crafting, or if its nice enough, play outside in the back yard.

Pretty boring morning routine, I know, but hey, its my routine, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I am blessed to have the life I have, so I try my best not to complain too much.

Come back tomorrow to read day 23's challenge, which is "A family member you dislike". Wow, that's gonna be a hard one, I'll have to think hard about who I want to talk about, cause there is a few.

Today's music challenge,
"A song you listen to when you're sad".

That would be "In My Daughter's Eyes" by Martina McBride. I love that song, and its a song that you wouldn't expect me to want to listen to when I'm sad, because that song, regardless of my mood, makes me cry. But WHY I like to listen to it when I'm sad, is because it makes me think of how blessed I am, and then the sadness I was feeling slowly goes away.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... day 21

Have you ever been so full that you felt like your stomach willing explode if you take one more bite of food or sip of drink ? Ugh, that's exactly how I feel right now. I made such good food for supper, that I think I overdid it. *lol*

Ready for today's writing challenge ?
Its day 21, and today's challenge, is
"Your zodiac/horoscope, and whether you think it fits you".

Now as many of you know, I am a Virgo. I am proud of my sign, but I'm not one of those people who are constantly "blaming" actions/characteristics on my zodiac sign. Infact, I actually believe that there are many traits from different signs that can sound like one person, so I don't really believe that one particular action or trait is specifically for one zodiac.

Don't get me wrong, there ARE certain alleged Virgo traits that I find describe me to a T, but I've also seen those same traits describe someone who is a Taurus. Whoever started that whole thing of saying certain qualities are for certain zodiac signs, so wrong. I've seen some who have not one single quality that is allegedly attributed to their zodiac sign. People even ask, "are you sure you're a ___ (insert zodiac here)", all because they don't act like a "typical" person of that zodiac. Like what kind of nonsense is that ?

So to answer the question, no, I don't think it fits me.

Join me tomorrow for Day 22's challenge, which is "Your morning routine".

Today's music challenge,
"A song you listen to when you're happy"

I listen to a lot of music when I'm happy, but one song that just seems to amplify my good mood, is "El Bumper (Remix)" by Voltio ft lil Rob & pitbull.

Friday, May 20, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 20

Ugh, WHY do websites claim a particular store has a certain item, yet when you go there, there is none and the employees (manager even), has never even seen that product in the store before. I was looking for this snack item that I tried, and I really like it, but I've never seen it sold anywhere near me. Apparently, according to the website, the IGA near me sells it, so I went to the IGA website and it said that the snack is available at the store at the corner of my street, including that its on sale for 1.99 this week. So I go, spent 20 mins walking around the store trying to find it, so I ask one of the managers that I know, and he helped me look around the store, then says he never seen them there, and never even heard of them till I showed him the picture, and even he doesn't understand why the website would say its available when its not.

But anyways,
Today is day 20, and today's challenge, "Put your music player on shuffle, write the first three songs, and your initial thought on them"

So here we go....

Song #1.
"Asi es la vida" de Joe Veras.

When I hear it, I think of how life is sometimes. For those who don't know the song, or don't understand Spanish, it basically talks about how this guy is in love with a girl, but she is in love with someone else. How often do we hear that, a good guy is crazy about a girl, but she is infatuated with a guy who treats her bad or is bad for her. The poor guy who loves her and will treat her like a queen gets ignored, or pushed aside for the "bad boy".

Song #2.
"Enter Sandman" by Metallica

My first thought whenever I hear this song, is, "I think Jubjub and I need to hit up karaoke again soon". Because my brother Joey always sings this song EVERY time we go to karaoke. Yes he does other songs too, but this is always his main song, and he does it so well too, especially when he had his really long hair and would headbang during the instrumental break in the song.

Song #3.
"Dollar Wine" by Byron Lee and the Dragonaires

When I hear this song, it makes me think of when I was a child and we used to go to Christmas parties at aunty Sally's place or Aunty Zai's place. My dad, Uncle Phil, and Uncle Raj used to dance this song together to be funny, and it was funny too, cause they were all big at the time, so we used to call them belly dancers. Oh the memories.

So that's all for today's challenge. Come back tomorrow for day 21, which is "your zodiac/horoscope and whether you think it fits you".

Today's music challenge,
"A song you listen to when you're angry"

When I'm angry, I like to listen to 80's/90's music, because there is such good memories attached to most of the songs, that it tends to calm my nerves. One of the songs that I can think of without hesitation is "Step by Step" by New Kids on The Block.

Thursday, May 19, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 19

So our (my daughter's and mine) long weekend has begun. Time to relax and just take it easy for the next 4 days. No alarms waking us up at 6am, no having to go to bed early (although my daughter usually falls asleep early on her own).

Monday here in Canada is a holiday, its Victoria day, and I believe its Memorial Day in the US on Monday. And tomorrow its a ped day at Diva's school.

Haven't fully decided yet what we're gonna do this weekend yet. I know tomorrow we have errands to run and grocery shopping to do, and I know at some point this weekend, weather permitting, we're going to the park. Sunday is our usual craft day, but no plans for Monday yet, maybe itll be another craft day, or just a day to relax and unwind to get ready for school Tuesday, we shall see.

Today's writing challenge for day 19, is "Five fears you have". I have more than 5 for sure, but this time it isn't so hard to think of which ones I want to talk about. So let's just jump right in to it.

1- Losing my daughter.

My daughter is the best thing that has ever happened to me, I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost her in any way. I guess that could be why I'm so over protective of her. But she's my princess, my lil miracle, and I love her more than life itself. That lil girl is my world.

2- Heights.

I'm terrified of high spaces. I only live on the second floor in the triplex and I can't even bring myself to go close to the edge of the balcony without trembling.

3- Being Paralyzed.

The thought of being paralyzed and having to depend on someone for the rest of my life completely terrifies me. I like to be able to just get up and walk around my house, or go for walks outside any time I want, whether by myself, with my daughter, or with whoever. So to think of suddenly not being able to do that, and being confined to a wheel chair or bed for my life is a scary thought.

4- Small enclosed spaces.

I tend to panic and feel like the walls are closing in on me when I'm in a small enclosed space. Elevators especially, most times I'd rather take the stairs, unless where I'm going has too many stairs or where I'm going has alot of floors. But I also panic and feel anxious when I'm on a crowded bus or subway as well, when that happens, I can't wait to get off the bus/subway to get some air. That's why if most people who know me personally ever noticed, I try my best to make plans before or after rush hour, so I can at least TRY to avoid having to be on a crowded bus/subway.

5- Losing contact with my baby sister & baby brother again.

That's a long story, and abit too personal for my blog right now, but for a long time, I had no contact with my baby brother and baby sister. Okay, so they aren't so baby anymore, since my sis just turned 16 in March and my brother is turning 18 this sunday (gosh I feel old now lol), but still. I've said it once, and I'll say it again, to me they'll always be my baby brother and baby sister (deal with it Bri and Kimmy lol). I almost lost contact again with them like 2 years ago or so, because of some issues with school and fb drama they had to deactivate their accounts, and I got so depressed over it, I thought I was losing them all over again. (They live in a different province with their dad). So now that they are back online full time, I don't ever want to have to lose contact with them again, especially since we are so close. They are VERY important to me, and I love them with all my heart. I think if I lost contact with them again, it would send me over the edge. I know people say I'm exaggerating, but I'm really not. No one really understands how much these 2 mean to me.

So that's the end of today's post. Make sure you come back tomorrow for day 20's challenge, which is "Put your music player on shuffle, write the 3 first songs that play and your intitial thought on them". I have to try to remember how to do that on my mp3 player, but I'll find a way to shuffle my songs lol.

Don't forget to check out my latest youtube video, I just uploaded today, its my planner video. Nothing special, but still.

Today's music challenge, is, "A song from your favorite album".

That would be "Bidi Bidi Bom Bom" by la reina de tejano, Selena from her album Amor Prohibido.


Wednesday, May 18, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 18

Happy HumpDay my lil Sparks ! How ya'll doing today ?

The week is half way done. I don't know about ya'll, but I'm so ready for the weekend. I know what you're thinking, and while yes, I am a stay-at-home mom, its still alot of work to get up every morning to get my baby ready for school each morning, especially since my sleep is all over the place lately. Besides, the weekends is my time to relax with my daughter and have quality mother-daughter time. Luckily this week my daughter is off on Friday, as well as next monday, so we have an extra long weekend to do our weekend mother-daughter stuff.

So yea, today is day 18 of the writing challenge, and today's challenge is "your favorite color and why".

Anyone who knows me well, knows that ever since I was little, my favorite color has always been pink.

I love pink, every shade of pink. I swear, there's just something about it that makes everything look so pretty. It makes everything look so soft, so sweet, so feminine.

I could go on and on talking about my love for all things pink, but you'd be here forever, and the challenge never said it had to be a long answer, so here you go.

What about ya'll, what's your face color ?
Tell me in the comments section below.

Come back tomorrow for Day 19, "Five fears you have"

Today's music challenge,
"A song you wish you heard on the radio"
Like I mentioned yesterday, I don't listen to the radio but if I did, I would really love to hear "SueƱa" by Gerardo Mejia (Yep, the "Rico Suave" guy)

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 17

Good evening my lil Sparks,

How you all doing tonight ? I have a massive migraine, but I'm not letting that stop me from writing tonight. I was gonna edit a video to upload on youtube today, but I this migraine is so bad, I can't deal with loud sounds right now. Maybe later if it simmers down, if not, it'll be tomorrow.

So anyways, Today's writing challenge, for day 17, is "A quote you try to live by".

One of my favorite quotes, is by one of my alltime favorite singers, Dolly Parton. The quote is,

"If you don’t like the road you’re walking, start paving another one."

This quote is one I've tried to live by for many years. I love Dolly Parton, and she has some very inspirational quotes she has said over the years, but this one stuck to me more than others.

Its true if you think about it. If you don't like how your life is going, then do something to change it. Nothing with life is set in stone, and nothing is unchangable. If you don't like something that is happening in your life, its YOUR life, you CAN change it.

That's what I did, and what I'm continuing to do. I even have that quote printed out and up on the wall in my room so I can see it every day and remind myself.

What quotes do you live by ?
Let me know in the comments section below.

Come back tomorrow for day 18's challenge, which is "Your favorite color and why".

Goodnight everyone !

Today's music challenge,
"A song you hear often on the radio".
I don't listen to the radio anymore, its gotten to be too repetitive, so today, just because, I'll just post one of my favorite Dolly Parton songs, "Eagle when she flies".

Monday, May 16, 2016

30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 16

Monday already ?

The weekend sure did seem to pass faster than usual.

How did ya'll enjoy your weekend ?

So today's challenge is to "bullet" my day.

Like I said in yesterday's post, I'm not entirely sure what that means, BUT, if I am going to go by what I learned in my english class when we learned about writing, I would imagine that it means to give you a detailed rundown of my day.

My day today was certainly nothing special compared to most people, and this isn't every day, (most days are even more boring than today was haha).

However, this what happened today, I'm sure you'll find it boring, but here we go anyhow....

  • 6am- wakeup, wake up my daughter, turn on the tv to channel 1609 (OutTv) and listen to in the kitchen with stefano faita.
  • 6:15am- Help my daughter get dressed for school and do her hair.
  • 6:30am- Breakfast
  • 6:45am- Brush teeth
  • 7am: go downstairs to see granddad (my dad) and wait for the school transport
  • 7:15am- Help my daughter in to school transport van and say see you afterschool.
  • 7:20am- Go back upstairs, get in bed, watch Steven & Chris (on that same channel) till I fall asleep (usually takes about 10 mins or so)
(That's my every morning routine on school days)

    • 10:30am- wake up, get dressed
    • 10:45am- Went to the computer store to see about fixing my laptop FINALLY
    • 11am- wait for the 18
    • 11:25- waiting for the 139
    • 12pm- meeting at the CLSC
    • 1:45pm- Meeting finished
    • 1:50pm- Walk to easyhome to talk to manager
    • 2pm- walk around Village Valeurs
    • 2:30pm- walk to super C
    • 2:34pm- Call my mom, then walk around Super C
    • 3pm: catch the 139 heading home
    • 3:35pm- walk around IGA
    • 4:20pm- Make supper
    • 4:30- eat supper
    • 5pm- take a nap 
      (don't worry, my dad was watching my daughter so I could catch up on my sleep, haven't been sleeping well lately, but that's for another post another day)
    • 9:45pm- wake up from my nap
    • 10pm- now I'm writing this

    Wow, never really wrote point by point about my day before, I never realized till now how boring my day is most days haha.

    Come back tomorrow for day 17, which the challenge is : "A quote you try to live by".

    Now I'm about to go watch some old episodes of Family Matters until I get sleepy. Night ya'll !

    Today's music challenge, "A song you used to love but now you hate".

    That's a tough one, because if I loved a song, its hard for me to turn around and hate it afterwords. I can only think of one song, but I honestly don't even "hate" it, its just hard to listen to because it reminds me of someone that I no longer talk to and every time I listen to it, it makes me think of that person and the anger comes back all over again, so I try not to listen to it unless I absolutely have to.

    "Love is Wicked" by Brick & Lace


    Sunday, May 15, 2016

    30 Day Writing Challenge... Day 15

    Happy Sunday my lil Sparks !

    I hope ya'll are doing well today.

    We made it ! Today is day 15 of the writing challenge, so we're officially at the halfway mark ! I'm proud of myself for sticking to this, I don't remember ever writing this much in my blog, even in the past when I used to write a lot (I wish I still had that blog, but I deleted it years ago).

    Today's challenge is "Three pet peeves".

    I have so many pet peeves, I don't know how to pick only 3 of them.

    well here goes...

    1- I hate when people say they will be somewhere at a certain time and show up hours late or don't show up at all, and then don't even apologize for it.

    2- I hate how when waiting for a bus, you could be waiting there a long time, but some people just show up at the stop, and think its okay to cut in line ahead of you, when they clearly saw you were there before them.

    3- I hate when people finish something (like milk, jam, etc) and just put the empty container back in the fridge without telling anyone (especially the person who does the groceries), that they finished something.

    There's so many more pet peeves I have, I may have to make a list of them in an upcoming post.

    What about ya'll,
    what are your 3 biggest pet peeves ?

    Come back tomorrow, the challenge for day 16 is "bullet your entire day". I'm guessing that means make a list of what I do all day, not sure, but hey whatever lol.

    Today's music challenge,

    "A song that describes you".

    I dunno, that's a hard one. I can't think of one offhand that describes ME, but I do have one that describes how I look at things now, with confidence and pride. And that is "Roll it gal" by Allison Hinds.

    Listen to the lyrics and you'll see what I mean.