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Thursday, April 28, 2016

Its been a year already ? Wow .... I miss you granny

So today marks a year since my grandmother passed away. I was just posting something about it on my Facebook, and I literally just broke down and started bawling like a baby. I didn't think I was still THAT emotional over losing the only grandparent I had left, guess I was wrong.

I miss my grandmother sooooo stinkin' much !!!

I wish I could go to sleep, wake up, go downstairs to her place, and see her still sitting in her chair, watching tv, smiling, and having that beautiful shine in her eyes when she sees my daughter bounce around the corner running to hug her, saying "HI BABA !!!!"

But I know that won't happen.
Which makes me sad.

Why did granny have to die ?!?!
I know she was old, but come on, none of us were ready for her to go !

She didn't get to see my daughter have her first day of kindergarten, didn't get to see my daughter's first report card, along with so many other firsts my daughter accomplished this year since starting school in September. My daughter cries for her so much, they were close, she loved her Baba so much. And granny loved my daughter, ever since my daughter was born, that little girl put a joy in my granny's eye that I hadn't seen in a very long time.

I will be the first to admit, growing up, I wasn't always the nicest to granny. I was a downright disrespectful brat growing up. I regret that now. I missed out on so much quality time with her cause I thought she was annoying and a pain in the ass. It was only once I got to about my late 20's/early 30's that I realized how awesome she really was, and did everything I could to make her feel loved and show her how sorry I was for being such a badass when I was younger.

I hope she can forgive me for all the bad I did growing up.
I hope she knows I loved her...more than I showed.

As I got older, I did everything I could to make granny smile. I would always buy her treats whenever I went out shopping, went down to spend time with her while she watched tv, and listened to her tell her old stories from her past, even if I've heard them a million times lol. We even played a fun game together where we'd name celebrities who's name started with a certain letter of the alphabet. I always laughed at how we would be letters away and she would remember a bunch for letters we had already done.

What hurts the most....
I was 37 when she passed (I'm 38 now), and yet I have almost completely forgot the sound of granny's voice. Does that make me a bad granddaughter ? I sure feel like it. I wish now that instead of always snapping pictures of granny, I wish I woulda taken some videos of her, so I could hear her voice any time I missed her (so basically every day).

I do take comfort in the fact that she is no longer in pain, and no longer suffering. Though that doesn't make it any easier to accept that she's gone, and it doesn't make me miss her any less.

But, I know that she's in heaven with dido (my grandpa), and with my baba (her mom), not to mention all the family we have lost before her. Its a big ol' family reunion up there. I hope heaven is ready for all those crazy Ukrainians in one place !

I could ramble on forever about granny, and how amazing a woman she was, but I know people don't like reading long posts, so I'll end this here, I just needed to get that off my chest.

I miss you so much granny, and I love you very much !

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

A Month Later..... L'Oreal Preference Infinia #MakeDay1Last

Awhile back, I was given the chance by a site called Influenster to review a new product for free. Who wouldn't jump at the chance right ? Especially since it gives me new material to film for my youtube channel.

And let's face it..... no one is gonna say no to something that is FREE (unless it really doesn't help us in any way).

My hair needed re-dying anyway, so when they sent me the invite, I gladly accepted ! So the box came, and I got not one, but 2 free boxes of L'Oreal's Preference Infinia hair dye with its new color refresher, that is supposed to make your hair color stay as vibrant during week 4 as it does during day 1.

Here's my unboxing and intial thoughts on the product as I posted on youtube...

Hmmm, I dunno bout that....well now I do....and it does.

Let me just say, I was kind of upset, because I didn't think it worked, until today when I was doing some "extra credit" work for influenster and writing a review to post on Walmart's website. I was thinking this whole time that the color refresher was supposed to cover your growing roots and greys (if you have any, which I do), and it wasn't working, so I thought either I was doing something wrong, or that it didn't work.

Come to find out, I'm a dumdum lol, and it IS working, it only refreshes your color, NOT your roots or anything.

Here is my final review that I posted on youtube just today...

So does it work ? YES
Is it worth buying in the future ? YES
Do I feel stupid for not understanding what it does.... DEFINATELY
I think that maybe next time, I need to take the time to understand the product abit better before I condemn a product lol. (and so I don't look like an idiot). But I really did have fun trying out this product, as I do like to try different brands of hair dye to see which one suits my needs the most. I definitely think I have found my go-to product from now own.
Thank you to Influenster Canada for allowing me the opportunity to be one of the lucky few who got to review this product, can't wait to review more voxboxes in the future !