Anyways, How ya'll doing ?!
The past like 2 days has been kind of hard for me. I'm trying sooo hard not to go insane with the junk, but the past few days I have been craving salty and sweet things like crazy. I guess it makes sense, cause "aunt flo" SHOULD be making her visit around the 8th of next month (TMI, I know lol), and usually, about a week or two before that happens, I eat more than usual, and usually its alot of salty and sweet foods, sometimes even salty & sweet combined.
I'm rambling again, but yea, my point is, I have a bag of chips that I bought at Dollarama to do a taste test video on for my youtube channel, which I already shown in my dollarama haul video I recorded (going up in february), and I know, I COULD very well eat it and replace the bag to film the taste test with, but I don't want to lie to my sparks, I wouldn't feel right, so I'm not touching it. I could easily film that and just add it to my footage, but like I was telling my sister Fifi, I don't have all the things I want to get for the video yet, which is why I'm waiting till february.
Having it in my cupboard (or my dollarama shelf as my brother Jubjub calls it lol), is a great test to my willpower. Every time I go in the cupboard for something, I see the bag, and its almost like my craving amplifies. I'm doing good so far, I've had this bag since last wednesday, and usually by now, that would've been done on like the same day or next day max. So I think I'm doing better with my willpower.
Some of you may be saying to yourself, "what's the point of today's entry then", and honestly, I don't know. I was tempted to grab the chips, and instead I came online and decided to write in my blog. I guess its my way of keeping my mind off of it.
For those who don't know, I have an eating disorder called "Compulsive OverEating", yes, its a real thing, google it, cause I'm not talking about it in today's post, I'll touch on it in another post coming soon. As someone with a disorder, this is a HUGE feat for me. Keeping a bag of chips for a week (longer by the time the first rolls around), is a big challenge for someone like me. Its almost akin to putting pills infront of a recovering addict and expecting them not to touch them no matter how tempting it is.
(Before anyone gets all judgemental, YES, I can use that analogy because I speak from experience, I AM a recovering addict, which I will talk about in an upcoming post.)
One day at a time they say, but for me, its more like, one hour at a time.
I'm proud of myself so far. I just hope my willpower holds up long enough....its only 6 more days till the first....I can do this !
Talk to you guys soon, I'm off to play some games on my ipad till its time to make supper.
What about ya'll....
What do you guys do when you are craving something but need to keep your willpower strong to not indulge ? Let me know some of your tips in the comments.