30 Day Writing Challenge ... Day 11

 

What's up everyone. I know its been awhile. Today's entry, is supposed to be "Your current relationship, if single, discuss that too", 

BUT, I don't know if you guys have realized, but I don't talk about my love life (whether I have one or not) online, because of things that have happened in the past. I much prefer to keep that part of my life private. 

SO.....

Instead, I'll be talking about what has been up with me since I last posted. 

As many of you know, in August of 2021, my dad was hospitalized, and then he passed away on September 2nd, 2021. That was hard for my family. If you want a more detailed explanation, watch the video attached at the end of this post. 

Anyway, that sent my mental health in a downward spiral, cause as you know, I was (still am), a big daddy's girl. Then... the day we picked up my dad's ashes from the funeral home in November, I found out that my mother found her husband dead in the kitchen, stroke or heart attack (not sure which to be honest, because I am forever confusing the 2 conditions), which really upset my daughter, cause she loved her Papa. I was sad too, cause even though we didn't always see eye to eye, we were finally getting along. He was a big support when daddy died. Then our cousin Olga passed away. I wasn't super close to her, she was older than my dad if I remember correctly, and she was close to granny and daddy. I remember thinking, "okay, family reunion in heaven apparently" (our cousin Helen passed away in June, and she was close to daddy and granny too)

So through all that, things started to get better between my uncle and I, we were starting to get along, and he was slowly turning back to the uncle I remember when I was younger. Him being my dad's biological brother, I took solace in knowing that there was still a part of my dad here on earth. And then about a week before Christmas, I found out my uncle passed away too ! 

Like, can my family catch a dam break ?! 

Its 2022 now, and HOPEFULLY no more family members pass away this year. I really don't think my mental health can handle it. 

I'm slowly getting back in to doing the things I enjoyed doing before daddy died. I know he  would be mad at me if I kept moping around and basically stopping my life because his ended. I have a child to take care of, and I need to be strong for her. Also, I can't stop living my life and doing what I enjoy. So I'm slowly getting back in to my gaming, and soon will return to streaming. As well, I'm slowly getting back in to posting on my Youtube channel, my goal for 2022 is to reach one thousand subscribers. I'm currently at 755, so we have roughly 10 months to gain 245 more subs. I know we can do it, but I need to stay consistent. Also, I want to get back in to blogging often, hence why I'm here. I know not many ppl actually read my blog, but I find it helps me.

Anyway, thanks for listening to me, and tomorrow I will be back to posting the 30 day writing challenge properly. Hope you understand my decision to write this today instead of going against my beliefs to post about my love life. Maybe one day I will, but for now, its best I keep that part of my life private. 

Don't forget to check out my video about daddy below, and sub to my channel if you haven't yet. 

Today's music challenge, is "A song from your favorite band" 

That's easy....

Check out "I'll Be There For You" by Bon Jovi

30 Day Writing Challenge ... Day 10

 What's up people ! 

Hope ya'll are doing good tonight. I'm kind of busy tonight, editing a video for my Youtube channel (which should be done uploading by the time I'm finished writing this), and working on some graphics, and I know I missed a day (technically 2 by the time I get this posted), but here I am with day 10 of the 30 day writing challenge. 

Today's challenge is "A fruit you dislike and why". 

I had to think a lot about what fruit I dislike, because I love pretty much all fruits. Sure, I have my faves, but I don't really know of a fruit I dislike. Well, that was until I started thinking about it, and I realized, there is a fruit I dislike..... Limes.

I don't hate them, but I try to avoid them as much as possible (except for when I eat tacos, freshly squeezed lime juice atop tacos is yummy). I don't know why, but I never did really like sour food, and limes just are a tad too sour for my liking. If I had to choose between lemons and limes, I would much prefer lemons. 

People have been telling me for years that I should try key lime pie, but I just can't bring myself to do it. Part of me wants to try it, but part of me is kind of apprehensive, because in my head, I'm kind of expecting it to taste sour or bitter. 

Of course, I know there are benefits to consuming limes, such as being high in vitamin C and antioxidants, eating limes or drinking the juice may improve immunity, reduce heart disease risk factors, prevent kidney stones, aid iron absorption, and promote healthy skin. I still don't like the taste of it. lol. 

I guess that's all for now, I tried to make this entry as long as I could without repeating myself, but how much can one really say about a fruit they dislike ? I mean.... I don't really like limes, unless its freshly squeezed over tacos. I don't even like lime wedges in my Coronas. 

Have a good night ya'll, and don't forget to check out my latest upload to my Youtube channel below. 

P.s..

Today's music challenge, is "A song that makes you fall asleep".

There isn't really one, BUT, I guess if I had to choose one, it would be "Fur Elise" by Beethoven. That song has such a calming effect on me, that it can easily make me fall asleep if I'm not careful lol. 

30 Day Writing Challenge ... Day 9

 

Whassup everyone reading this ! Hope you all are having a good evening, and had a good day. 

Today, I believe we are on day 9 of the writing challenge, and today's theme is "Your feelings on ageism". 

Before I can begin, let's look at what the "WHO" (World Health Organization) describes as Ageism.... 

"Ageism refers to the stereotypes (how we think), prejudice (how we feel) and discrimination (how we act) towards others or oneself based on age."

I think ageism is so annoying AF. I've experienced it many times in my life, as well as seen it happen to others. People should seriously mind their own business when it comes to age. So what if an adult enjoys playing videogames ? So what if a person in their mid 40's (or even later) want to dress in a certain style that is mostly worn by younger people ? Why do we have to tell people something like "wow, you look good for your age" ? Why do we have to  assume that older people are no good at using technology but assume a younger person is a wiz at it ? Comments like "okay boomer" when talking to an older person, or calling them a geezer (sp?), or making fun of them for being old. 

That ish is getting tired and fast. 

My own daughter has done that to me before, telling me "mommy, aren't you a bit old to be watching cartoons ?". Why ? Because I'm 43 ? Where on a cartoon does it say that you must stop watching it at a certain age ? Sure, many movies and tv shows have ratings on it, but those are just basic guidelines, and it doesn't say you have to be under a certain age to enjoy it. And WHY do we call people who indulge in certain youthful behaviors as childish ? Why do people have to enjoy it in secret for fear of being ridiculed ? If an adult wants to collect toys and even play with them from time to time, who are we to judge them and tell them they are too old to do that ? Honestly, as long as it is not affecting you in any negative way, then why should it even bother you ? 

I'm sorry, if I want to go to a store and buy myself a teddy bear and cuddle it when I sleep because it helps with my anxiety, then I should be able to do that without people looking down their noses at me and assuming I'm childish. I shouldn't have to be forced to dress a certain way because "that's not how a 43 year old mother should be dressing". 

People should be able to do whatever they want, (within reason obviously), without backlash from society. 

The meme below sums it up perfectly (excuse the fowl language, I try not to cuss on my blog, but sometimes, its just needed to get your point across)

Now....

Don't get me wrong, if its something that is illegal, such as underage drinking, or an adult dating a minor, then NO, by all means, make sure they follow the law and do what is within their legal age-range. I do NOT condone adults trying to have any kind of romantic relationship with a minor, I don't care how "old" or mature the minor portrays themselves, or how "young" or immature the adult seems to be. Its one thing to get along with minors, but that takes it to a whole other level of "hell the fuck no" .

With that said, it is time to get ready to start my Twitch stream, so I will end here.

But please, let me know in the comments section, what YOU think about ageism.

Today's music challenge is, "A song that you can dance to"

Well there are many, but the one I will choose today is "Ponte En Cuatro" by Dionis y La Banda Flakka. Its one of the first merengue songs I learned to dance to thanks to my sister from another mister, Joscya. 

30 Day Writing Challenge .... Day 8

 Hey guys ! 

Happy Victoria Day ! (Its a national holiday here in Canada for those who aren't aware).

I had a great day with my daughter, and we're winding down for the evening, getting her ready for bed, and I'm getting ready to begin my nightly Twitch stream, but I wanted to post on here for ya'll before I do that. 

So where are we now ? Oh yes, day 8. Which is "A book you love and one you didn't".

This one is going to be a hard one, because anyone who knows me, knows I love to read, and its rare I come across a book that I don't actually like. 

I guess I'll begin with the book I loved. 

Again, there are so many books I read, and its hard for me to find one I didn't love, so choosing ONE that I did love is hard. Let me think......

I suppose if I had to choose one, I guess I would choose "The Demonologist: The Extraordinary Career of Ed & Lorraine Warren". I am a huge fan of theirs and have been for many many years. I purchased all the books by them (well all I could find on amazon that seem to be tied in together in an unofficial series). I loved this book so much, I couldn't put it down. Reading it, I felt like I was actually sitting down to tea with the Warrens, and having a conversation with them about their careers. The paranormal has always fascinated me, and they were the first "paranormal investigators" I ever learned of. Then, to see her on episodes of Paranormal State used to make me so happy. I was saddened to hear about Lorraine's passing in 2019.

I even did a book review on it, you can watch it by clicking the video below...

Now, 

As for the book I didn't love. I can't really think of one at the moment. The ONLY book I was disappointed in, and that's ONLY because I watched the movie AFTER reading the book, and I usually am pretty good at making sure I watch a movie first before reading the book, because they usually are so different. But I had borrowed the book Angels & Demons from a friend and read it before the movie even came out, so when I went to the cinema to watch the movie, I was so disappointed at how much they changed parts of the story compared to what's written in the book. Even now, years later, no matter how often I watch the movie (I love Tom Hanks, so I will watch my Dan Brown movies over and over), I tend to scream at the tv "that's NOT how it happened in the book !"

So that's it for now. Hope you enjoyed it, I'm off to start my stream. Come watch and hang out with me while I play Sims 4. http://twitch.tv/ChispaPlays and if not, then see you back here tomorrow for another post. 

Today's music challenge, is "A song that you know all the words to". There are so many ! But the one I joke about a lot, is "Ice Ice Baby" by Vanilla Ice.

30 Day Writing Challenge ... Day 7

 

So we're finally up to Day 7. Which this post is actually one I love to talk about. 

Its "what tattoos I have and if they have meaning". 

(Which by the way, all my tattoos have meaning. I don't agree with getting tats just cause I like them or just cause they look cute, that's fine if anyone else does that, no judgement here, but for me, mine all have to have meaning to them)

I currently have 10 1/2 tattoos. 

They are....(in the order I got them)

1- Chispa written on my chest with a rose. 

I got that when I was 15, and it was drawn by my uncles Ralph (may he r.i.p), and Johnny.

2- Luscious written on my right bicep with a $ sign and a paw print. 

Luscious is one of my nicknames I've had for a long time, I was going to cover it because it was badly done, but I don't know, it has special meaning to me, especially now, so I may try to get it fixed. 

3- There's a name on my neck, but I'm serious thinking about getting that covered soon, and I don't wanna talk about that one lol.

4- Love on my inner left wrist. 

I won't go in to details right now, (I'll leave that for a later post), but September 10th is international suicide awareness day, and there was a pic going around the web for awhile saying to write "Love" on your wrist to show your support, or if you struggled with it in the past, which i have, so me, being extra as I am, decided, let's make it permanent.

5- My daughter's name with stars and squiggly lines. 

No explanation needed there. It was the first tat done by my bro Keeferz.

6- Bleeding heart with 2 butterflies on my right forearm. (Also done by Keeferz)

It WAS once supposed to be the Virgo symbol, but it got messed up, so I decided to cover it up, and it has a lot of meaning to me, cause of the bleeding heart, it reminds me of all the losses in my life.

7- Hello Kitty on my ankle with Sad Gyrl written under it. (Again, done by Keeferz)

I've been obsessed with Hello Kitty since I was a little girl, and Sad Gyrl has been my one of my nicknames since I was about 15. 

8- Cross on my index finger on the left hand.

I'm Catholic and wanted a cross, and I was bored one night, so I did it via "stick and poke" method

9- Semi Colon on the inside of my left wrist (under the love tattoo)

If you know what the semi colon project is, you'll understand, if not, here's a link to explain it. http://www.upworthy.com/have-you-seen-anyone-with-a-semicolon-tattoo-heres-what-its-about 

(if the link no longer works, please let me know and I'll find a new one)

10- A feather with birds and a quote that says "your wings were ready but my heart was not"

(I technically have 11, I started a 2nd stick and poke on my ring finger, but the ink didn't fully take, so I will finish it at a later time, but its started, so let's say 10 1/2)

For today's music challenge, its "A song that reminds you of a certain event", that song would be "El Cepillo" by Fulanito.

30 Day Writing Challenge .... Day 6

 

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around the last few days, I just wasn't in the right mindset to do anything online, I didn't even do any streams on Twitch the last few days, I took time off until Monday to just "reset" myself. However, I know I missed the last few days of writing, so here I am. So as to not overwhelm myself, I will be continuing where I left off, and instead of posting a few posts back to back, I'll just be picking up where I left off and posting daily challenges as I have been. So here is day 6.....

This post, is a bit of an emotional one for me. I am supposed to write about "A person who fascinates me and why". 

I thought long and hard about who I wanted to write about, and I chose to write about my bestie, my partner-in-crime, a girl I am honored to call my sister by heart.... Fiona (Fifi).

This girl, for those who don't know her, is someone I am definitely fascinated by, and admire more than words can say. And I'm not just saying that cause I call her my sister. 

She has been through so much through the years, both good and bad, but much of it rough. Despite all that, she has managed to raise 2 wonderful little boys, go back to school and actually finish her Show and Event Manager course, and get her diploma. Even though many people close to her were convinced that she shouldn't do it, or that she would find it hard and give up halfway through. 

I won't get in to her personal details, that's not my business to do, but rest assured, she had many obstacles thrown her way, and still overcame them, (with flying colors I might add ! ), and is STILL facing challenges and continues to overcome them. I may be older than her, but please believe, I look up to this woman more than she will ever realize. She has given me a renewed sense of hope that if you want something bad enough, and never give up, it CAN and WILL happen ! 

Being a mother of 2 boys, one of whom has been diagnosed as "special needs", went back full time to school, and ran her own business, taking part in online wrestling efeds, and now working full time can be stressful. Throw in some drama and other stress, and yea, any sane person might have thrown in the towel. But not my sissy, she would even go to school (and work) when she was exhausted, running on little to no sleep, even when she was sick as a dog too. She injured her knee this awhile back, and isn't supposed to walk on it very much, yet she STILL manages to get her butt to work (which is a very physical job, on her feet for her whole shift), and take care of her kids. Not to mention that she loves her family with every fiber of her being, both those related by blood as well as her "chosen" family. She is very protective of those she loves, and best of all, she loves my daughter as if she were her own. Can't no one mess with my princess when auntie Fifi is around.

Yes, I know, there are many people in the world who do that, and I take my hat off to them as well. But to know someone personally, who set a goal, and is going after her dreams, even when so many people around her want to see her fail, fascinates me. That is why I chose her to write about for Day 6's post. 

I love you Fifi, to the moon and beyond, and I'm so proud of you ! 

(the pic below is Fifi and I back in June 2020, sissy, we need new pics lol)

Today's Music challenge is, "A song that reminds you of somewhere", that would be "Behind Blue Eyes" by Limp Bizkit (not sure if I spelled it correctly lol)

30 Day Writing Challenge .... Day 5

 

I'll save you the small talk today and jump right in to today's post, and gonna keep it short and to the point.

Where am I now, up to day 5 ? That would be "A place I would live, but have never visited".

That is a hard one, I'm not entirely sure, I guess I would say, its a toss up between Dominican Republic, Barbados, Jamaica and Trinidad. 

Its hard to narrow it down to just one place, because I have loved ones who hail from all 4 of those countries, and from the stories I've heard, and pictures (as well as videos) I have seen of those islands, it seems like it would be a wonderful place to live. I know that sounds weird coming from someone who hates heat lol, but it seems so peaceful and calming, which would do wonders for me. 

Anyways, as I said, I would keep it simple and to the point tonight, so I will end it here, especially since I need to get ready to start my Twitch stream

http://twitch.tv/ChispaPlays incase you wanna come hang out.

Today's music challenge, is "A song that reminds you of someone", and that would be "All I Need" remix by Method Man ft Mary J Blige.